Linggo, Oktubre 20, 2013

I Want to be Good

I attended Sunday Service yesterday, and got past this very good Bible Verse.

14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?
Romans 7:14-24


This is the exact conflict I have inside my mind everyday. How can I ever choose to be right? I know better, but I fall to the same mistakes over and over. Who will rescue me? The answer may well be in verse 25 of the same chapter. I don't know. I never knew how to do it. Maybe, I will forever be a slave to all the things this world has to offer.


I'm comforted that I am not alone. That Paul, thousands of years before felt and did the same thing. Isn't that what we need most of the times? Someone who understands? Through words I found rest. In a man who lived before my time, someone I never knew. I am contented. I don't need to be perfect.


This is not an escape though. Not a solution to the problem. When I wake up in the morning, come thoughts and the conflicts stay on. Life continues.